Last Words(poem)

My last words are sharper than your knives or swords
My last words, simply put "you'll get what you deserve"
I never lost a battle never sported a scar
This time around I am the loser by far.

I was not the best contender and Some how
I doubt after awhile I will even be remembered
It was all washed away the day you decided not to stay
Nothing can be spoken to erase the heavy thoughts

Nothing can be broken to make this a lesson taught
I was destined to lead a very lonely life
So don't pride your self on leaving you really had no choice
Like even when I speak I still don't have a voice

You left me with empty insides with nothing but sucked up and spit out insights

I left cooked meals and social invites I watched you fall asleep and then Id turn off the lights.
I left you mentally before you even thought about the physical aspect
I was never even available so don't get all spastic.

I remember exactly what you said when it was the end,

you needed a change and it had to be drastic. So great! life with us separated and it couldn't be more fantastic! at least I don't have to hear you tell me anymore that I am too dramatic.

Sleeping alone at night makes my stomach hurt, I hope some one leads you on and breaks your heart and you get what you deserve. Tragic last words that are going to have to hurt, feelings that are better left unsaid are never unheard.

What keeps me awake at night is not that empty spot to my right, its not the way I have to squeeze my legs together real tight, its how i remember those words you used to whisper in my ears and once when they served a great ease to my fears now all they do is produce tears.

I yearn for eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, I want to forget every touch every where every word every time. I want to forget that there ever was a you and I.

Single last words that will cut deeper than any of this is shit, is that you promised you would never be like him, but you walked away just like the spitting image of his sin. So don't forget to pick up you loyalties on the way out because are team just lost the game, and you have no one to cry to it about.